Tuesday, 30 June 2015

Yet more confirmation of my future Spiritual Journey

During my second open circle I received yet more confirmation of my future Spiritual Journey and it is exciting to say the least.

We started the circle again the same as the first session I attended.  This time before I even get to the Gate and the Park I am already the Eagle soaring ahead and looking down on the path, flying over the gate etc... I return to my normal self at the entrance to the cave.  Once again we go through the coloured crystals and once again I am sat on the chair inviting someone to sit with me.  No-one comes.... However, over by the side door is an Indian Chief (fairly short and mature) Beckoning me over in a stern way as if I am already late!

I walk through the door and we are in a clearing with tipi's I step inside one and see a fire in the middle a big Brown bear (yes an actual bear) at one side, not menacing at all more as if he is there just to protect me.  There are others sat around the fire but they are more like blurs as if they have been drawn in pastels and smudged.  The Chief is sat opposite me.

He gets up and puts something over my shoulders, like an animal skin.  He then returns to his seat.  Not long after I rise out of my body and go straight into his!  I can see myself through his eyes and wow my head and neck are hurting and tilting upwards, this headdress is heavy, I mean really heavy.  (I do not know if they really are as I have never held one but it certainly felt like it!)

I was not in his body for long and to be honest I did find the whole thing a little freaky but I return to my body and before I stand up I am presented with two gifts, a peace pipe which is placed in my left hand and Drum which is placed in my right.  I am also told I have another gift for me waiting outside.
At this moment I am kind of feeling like it is my spiritual birthday!  I step outside to be greeted by a stunning Horse, it is white with brown patches and is just gorgeous.  I am told that this gift is to help me rejuvenate, to have fun.  I jump on the back of the Horse and ride to the edge of the mountain.  I am overlooking a vast landscape which is breathtaking.

Spiritual Journey
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Once again I sense it is time for me to return and I am the Eagle once more before looking back and saying goodbye to the Horse who is looking rather sad that I am leaving so soon, I fly over the landscape and then have the Epiphany "I get it, I can be anything, person, animal, I can be in anyone and see what they see".  I fly back to the cave, walk through the crystal rainbow and come back to the path and past the gate.

Once again my journey is very different to everyone else's, but after last week I am not feeling so self conscious about it and well to be honest I am ecstatic. like a little girl a Christmas... I was given a horse!

Peter tells me that the Horse as it is brown and white once again reflects being able to work on the Earth and Spiritual side.  The Eagle again means I am a messenger.  The Bear in the Tipi was protection I cannot remember what the gifts represented but upon research the Pipe means peace and prayer and the drum carries the heartbeat of Mother Earth and calls the Spirits and Nations together.

Once again it was showing me that I have an amazing journey ahead and to be fair at this point I am getting excited and really wanting to know what I need to learn next.  It was at this point that I came across some other resources which I mentioned in a previous post.

If you would like to share some experiences of your journey do leave a comment or connect with me on my facebook page where you will also find daily affirmations.

Love Life and Laughter

Traci x

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Monday, 29 June 2015

5 Steps to Improving your Spiritual Connection

I do not by any means confess to be the be all and end all of Spiritual knowledge, in fact quite the contrary.  The Divine inspiration is well exactly that, Divine... Not mine.  I would love to say that it was my brain and that it was all me that came to be able to say exactly the right thing at the right time and in the right way but those of us that are connected know otherwise.  However, here are 5 Steps to improving your Spiritual Connection.

So, How do you improve your chances to a Spiritual connection?  Here is a list of things that unbeknown to me at the time were already getting me primed and ready to hear, see, feel and relay what the divine needed to say.

No 1. Get Connected

This is such a huge part, in fact essential but when I say get connected I am basically saying you need to be out - yes outside.  Breathing in fresh air, smelling the earth (no not bent down to the ground sniffing!  Just by walking around).  Hearing the streams, rivers, trees, birds.

I am very lucky that we have just such a place locally.  It is stunning and without realising it, it was a place I was visiting more and more.  In fact on my other blog I even blogged that when visiting there it was like I could properly breathe!  Little did I know at the time that it was paving the way, emptying the mind and cleansing it ready for my journey to come.

This place does have everything, stunning trees, streams, an abundance of wildlife and the best sense that you are connected.

Whilst the Sea is also another great resource I have found that to get properly connected you need Earth as well as Water and Trees also seem to really help with connection.   We are lucky to also live by the Sea and it is also another wonderful place for connection but my most profound connections come as I said where you can feel more of mother nature.

Scadson Woods Copyright Traci Cornelius

No 2. Feel the Love

Yes, I can understand that "Feel the Love' may seem all a bit new age but it is the fastest and strongest way to get connected.  Now it is again important that you really "feel' not just say.  It needs to be an all encompassing feeling that fills you up and that you then use to help fill up someone else and that can be a person you know, a stranger, animals, pets etc... I often send out love and here is how:-
  • Imagine your entire being is filled with love, so much love that it exceeds your body and would look like you have an extra band around yourself.
  • Visualise this love leaving your body and transferring to those around you, feel the warmth it is giving.
  • Smile to others as you do this, I have personally found that if I smile it seems to magnify the feeling.

No 3. Be Grateful

I am sure this one comes as no surprise there is an abundance of information and resources regarding how being grateful and showing gratitude can help your life in so many ways.  From Healing to Connection to Manifesting, it is one aspect that just cannot be overdone.  However, it does need to be genuine!

If you rattle of a list in a monotone, unfeeling, here we go again type of mood you are not connecting properly.  There are so many things to be grateful for and look out for another post all about Gratitude for some great examples.

5 Steps to Improving your Spiritual connection

No 4. Be Open

Being open can sometimes be a tricky one to explain but basically I can give you some examples of what not to do!  You come across a book maybe through a colleague, a waiting room and you recognise it as one that you wanted to read awhile ago.... DO NOT dismiss that as Oh yeah I wanted to read that and then let it pass again.  Get the Book, Read the Book, be open to understanding that this is your Spiritual Guidance.  You think of someone you have not spoken to for awhile, then they call or text, DO NOT fob this off as mere coincidence, be open to recognising that this is a yet another connection.

No 5. Be Mindful

This really is a step forward from being open - you need to be open to see the signs and then Mindful as to not just recognise them but connect with them feel, see, hear why they are happening and take action.  This will give you a much greater connection.

The last three steps can and often will be done in conjunction with one another for example.  Let's revisit the book example, you see a book that you thought of reading awhile ago. You thank ... God/your Angels/your Guides/Spirit (which ever term appeals) for bringing your attention back to the book (No 4. Open, you were open to recognising the sign, No 3. Be Grateful, you were grateful by giving thanks, No 5. Be Mindful, you will be being Mindful when you read the book).

Please do let me know of your experiences from these steps.  You can connect with me by leaving a comment or connecting with me through my facebook page

Love Life and Laughter

Traci x

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Sunday, 28 June 2015

Spiritual Messages, Signs from the Divine...

I had already mentioned about my rather demanding request with regards some proof that this path is indeed the one I am meant to be on.  However, there is more, so much more.

I am getting Spiritual Messages and Signs from the Divine in all sorts of ways and there will be many that will say it is coincidence, that I am looking for it so therefore I am putting 2 and 2 together and getting 3 and I understand where they are coming from BUT... it is just simply not the case.

Sometimes you just have to trust.  I know, a hard concept for many including myself, but what would have happened if I had not jumped off that cliff? (please do read the post, before you think I was plummeting to my death!) What if I had decided not to trust... If I had ignored the messages from the Divine as pure imaginative nonsense, as a wild imagination that needs to be ignored.  I dread to think.

I think I would have continued on a downward spiral. However, instead because I listened, noticed and trusted look at the amazing and astounding transformations that are happening right before my very eyes and if seeing was not enough the feelings I have, how I feel everyday is just exhilarating.

Messages come in all sorts of ways, thoughts in my head, actions I need to do, something that catches my attention such as something to read, an action a person is doing. I know this means very little without specifics so I will share.  However, before I share as you are reading this take a few moments to think, relax your body and mind and see if you have been ignoring the messages that have been played out before you.  That you may have brushed off, even thought silly.

It's there, right in front of me... It has been all the time but now I can SEE it.

I have a couple of apps on my iphone that I use on and off but enough for me to say frequently.  I have the Doreen Virtue Messages from your Angels Oracle Cards app and the John Holland The Psychic Tarot Oracle Cards.  I have been using these apps for guidance many times or just for reassurance and I am amazed at the accuracy.  You can off course get these as physical Decks too.  Usually I click on the app, then click on Begin a Reading and follow the process, I have never really paid attention to any of the other options on that first screen.

That was until recently.  At the bottom is "Shop for Apps" I felt compelled to click on it... Not that I really noticed it at the time just more upon reflection as again it is not something I noticed before. It takes you through to a screen with a number of options.  I was drawn to the free App of HayHouse NOW.  I had no idea what it was or what it was about I just downloaded it.  Well, was I in for a surprise!  There were a number of free (and paid) resources all from Healing to Nutrition to EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique, I was in the past also an EFT Practitioner, but more on that another time).

I did not even read the title of the first section I just saw the I can do it Video Lecture and thought well it could be worth a listen...

Well, again I now know this was the next chink in my link.  My Spiritual helpers were ensuring I was getting a resource to help me understand my next set of actions.  The lecture was by Louise Hay and Cheryl Richardson and it was called "You Can Create an Exceptional Life".

First of all how disconnected have I been that I had not fully been aware of Louise Hay?! Anyhow she was talking about loving yourself and BAM again another light bulb moment.  I hadn't loved myself.  I was loving and doing everything for everyone else but I would always think, well Mark comes first, or the girls come first etc... Even Birthdays for years I have said "oh, mine doesn't matter".  If this is you too I am here to tell you YES IT DOES!!!

By not loving yourself you are giving permission for others not to love you.  You NEED to love yourself, every inch, every cell.  It is not selfish or conceited as many would have you believe it is ESSENTIAL to your Physical and Emotional Wellbeing.... Let me say that again just in case you did not get it...

The lecture gave me many more nuggets of information that burned deep into my brain, including the wonderful affirmation Louise uses all the time:-

"I Bless and Prosper those in my World, and those in my World Bless and Prosper me"

What a wonderful affirmation to have and I have personally taken this one on wholeheartedly.

After that lecture I immediately ordered You can Create an Exceptional Life by Louise Hay and Cheryl Richardson and You Can Heal Your Life by Louise Hay.

Now once again I need to give a little back story.  I have missed reading, really missed it but with four children, three of them being 3 and under I do not get a lot of "me time" to read, Ok so none...

I really wanted to change this so I went to Meetup.com and found a Book Club Meet that happened locally once a month.  Great, I thought this can be my way to get back into reading, meeting new people and having a bit of me time.  I'm excited, it is approaching and I am struggling to remember the last time I actually went and did anything for me... Then, the girls get sick... All of them! ARGHHH no book club for me.  However, had I have gone I would have once again been diverted from this path and the books I was meant to read.

I was so struck by the profound way that Cheryl and Louise's words resonated with me that the next time I was in the car I decided to listen to another.  It was Anita Moorjani and her talk about how she overcame Cancer along with her encounter of the Spirit World in what can only be described as what should have been her last moments.  Once again there were many wonderful messages but the one that stuck with me the most and the one I took action on immediately by writing it on our mirror was:-

"Love Yourself Like Your Life Depends on it, Because it Does"

The next person I listened to was Kris Carr about her Lecture on Crazy Sexy Life.  I was listening to her while hoovering!  Yes I was taking every possible moment.  Shortly after that lecture I decided to listen to some music, well I had the head phones in after all and still had some cleaning to do, hey, lets take this opportunity to get a little Jiggy with it!  I scroll my phone and see James Morrison, only one song and I think well, I have not listened to him for a looooooong time... I press Play...

The song is called " I won't let you go" and the album is called..... The Awakening!  When I see that half way through listening to the song I literally say out loud, Okay, I do get it I am not doubting anymore...

I urge you to stay vigilant, there could be messages that are right there, just for you, and like me before you have been too blind to see them.  Take some time, connect and notice.  

If you do this and you get some messages do share I would love to hear from you. You can comment on this blog or head on over to my facebook page

Love Life and Laughter

Traci x

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Saturday, 27 June 2015

Is it the "Green Machine" Juice, the affirmations or that I am now finally on the right path?

Is it the Green Machine Juice or the actuality that at last, and I really mean at last I am on the right path?  Could it be the positive Self-Talk and affirmations?

There is more than one reason I would like to locate the source but mainly because of the amazing difference I feel in my body.

Firstly despite finishing one of my "Time of Awakening" blog posts at 1:40am and then going onto read an article or two in a magazine before turning out the light to sleep.  I was still up at just before 6am making a bottle for my 9 month old with more vigour than usual.

I let the puppy out, take the bottle back upstairs to Alina and get back into bed expecting to feel the usual heavy, tired, I REALLY NEED MORE SLEEP feeling that usually plagues every cell in my body.  But... It's not there.

This for me is such a marked difference.  I read another couple of articles in a magazine and get all the children up for breakfast.

As I carry Alina downstairs I notice another marked difference... a huge difference... I am walking down the stairs with ease.  My usual heavy, aching knee joints are supple, light and free.   WOW, I cannot remember the last time I felt that way, I cannot remember the last time I walked down the stairs completely pain free.  I was not in huge amounts of pain before but it was there, niggling away, everyday.

This sparks yet another Lightbulb moment for me and I wonder what could have made such a dramatic turn around and so quickly... The quest begins....

I think back to before I even opened my eyes and to the best of my remembering I said the following:-

"Thank you Bed for giving me such a restful and rejuvenating Sleep"

"Thank you for healing my body overnight allowing me to wake fully refreshed and excited for the opportunities this day will bring"

Whilst on the toilet (I know too much information!) I say thank you to my bodily waste for removing all the toxins and leaving my body healthy.

I also repeat an affirmation from Lousie Hay (more on this in another post)

"I bless and prosper everyone in my world, and everyone in my world Blesses and Prospers me"

As I am making second breakfast (if you have watched Lord of the Rings my three year old is like Merry and Pippin, Breakfast, Second Breakfast, Elevinsies etc...!)

Nevaeh spills her water over the table.... Instead of my usual frustration I say (in my head)

"Thank you for giving me patience and understanding towards my children".

I have shared these affirmations as I am convinced they have made a positive impact already.  Add this to the "Green Machine" juice and that it was last night that I started this "Time of Awakening" Blog and that will be the reasons these dramatic changes are occurring and the speed in which this is happening.

You can see more affirmations on my facebook page, please do pop by and say hi and like my page, it would be great to connect with you x
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Open Circle

What is an Open Circle?  An Open Circle is a gathering either within a Spiritualist Church or Group that uses Guided meditation and a Teacher such as a Medium to help develop your skills, and a sharing of messages given from your Spirit Guides and people that have crossed over.  Not all Open Circles follow the same format and not all have a complete teaching avenue either, some may have a format where it is a if you get a message share and if not sit back and enjoy.  It is certainly worth finding one that suits what you are looking for.

My first Open Circle experience at the Spiritualist Church was a bit nerve wrecking.  I did not really know what to expect, what was expected of me and what I really needed to do.  However, my concerns were unnecessary.  I should have already learnt that my guides and teachers have put me on this path to learn and fast, so of course they would ensure I was connected to a resource that could help with that.

Everyone was friendly and welcoming, there were seats in the middle of the room in a circle.  We were asked if anyone was new and three of us (including myself) raised our hands. It was explained that we would have an opening prayer, followed by a guided meditation of which we would then have 10 minutes to either talk to someone or have a wander, but then we would be brought back.  We could then share the experience before having the opportunity to do some mediumship if we chose too.

Inwardly I already groaned... Meditation is not my thing... Not because I do not believe in it, or think that it is worthwhile just because I can NEVER do it. I have a brain that works 100+ miles per hour and just seems incapable of shutting off.  So, I say it is ok if you can't do it though right?

We will have none of that here, No negativity, you are already telling yourself you can't..... Hmmm one duly noted wrap over the knuckles and a check over on my thought process (it was said in a gentle way but It did make me think, hmmm and I always thought I was positive - must be keep a check on that!).

And it begins.....

The ambient music is played, an opening prayer to the Divine asking for protection etc... was said and then Kevin guided us through his meditation.  Walking along a pathway and in through a gate to a Park area, notice any animals, the trees any flowers....

At this point I have trees either side and I see an Eagle, a Deer, a Stag to be precise not very old but the antlers are prominent and he is brown in colour, I also see a skunk to which my mind says hmmm that is strange and then an owl.  As I continue walking along this path the Eagle is flying beside me and the Stag is following me.  We approach a cave, I cannot help but keep turning around, the Stag is still following me, is it meant to be? Is this what usually happens, I have no idea but I continue on anyway. 
C/o David Sampson

The Eagle is now on the tree just waiting as I walk inside the cave, a crystal cave that blends from one colour of the rainbow to another. Red, we breathe in the Red, Orange, we breathe in the Orange and Yellow etc... etc.. and all the time the Stag is still following behind me.  

Once we enter the cave there is a seat in front of us that we go and sit on, (the Stag stands beside me) and then another seat is in front of us.  Anyone wishing to speak to us can sit on this chair or if we prefer we can have a wander around the cave or go through the door at the side. (This is the start of our 10 minutes.)

I ask if anyone would like to have a chat with me, I feel someone there but cannot see them and they are not coming to sit so I stand and walk over to the door way and open the door. As soon as I go through the door I am greeted with the Brightest most Beautiful Sunshine, I mean it is surrounding everything. In front of me is a sea of people, just row, after row, after row.  So many people but I cannot see their faces and as I walk on they part. Making a pathway and in my head all I can think of is the stories of the seas parting!  I continue walking on until I get to the edge which is a waterfall that goes a VERY long way down.  The Eagle is back and on my right-hand side and the Stag who is now bigger and White is on my left.  The Eagle just keeps staring at me.

In my head I think well I have come this far Ok, I trust you and I just fall off the edge.... Except I don't actually fall!  I am flying... No really I am flying... and the Eagle is flying next to me, I mean how awesome! 

I can feel everything, I feel weightless, the air around me and trust me I am beaming and thinking oh my gosh how cool is this!  We fly over to an island and this island is full of children but once again I cannot see faces except for this one Beautiful Little Girl who had Mousey Brown hair in Wavy Ringlets.  She is crying and hearing her is already breaking my heart, she says to me that she has lost her Mummy.  I put my arms around her and say "oh Darling, you have not lost your Mummy she is always with you" and with that she just disappeared.... I would say I was a little freaked by this but you know, I really cannot say that I was. At the time it all felt perfectly normal and I felt a huge peace envelope me.  At this point I am thinking it is time to come back but instead of me flying back I am now the Eagle!  Except much larger but once again I can feel everything, I can feel the beat of my wings the movements of my eyes, everything.  

Resource: http://plantiebee.deviantart.com/art/Waiting-to-Fly-Golden-Eagle-290250213

I get back to the cave and once again I am in my natural form and the Stag is back by my side.  Inside the cave I am just wondering around and well to be honest my mind started to drift to everyday things like shopping, children etc... But no sooner had I started to drift into what I will call normalness (I know another new word!) I would be hit by a brilliant white ball of light into my third eye, as if to say oh no you don't - we have got you here now and we are not ready for you to go just yet!

Shortly after that Kevin is bringing us back and we are walking back through the cave, back down the path where I once again also see the Owl, we close the gate and come back into the room.

Yep, that's it I am Crazy...

I am the last person sat in the circle in terms of people to speak and share what we saw, who we spoke to etc... after a couple of people spoke it is clear to me that Yep, I am completely Crazy, Nuts even!  Over active imagination and am likely to be thrown out of this group with a tut and a lecture of how this is no joke and they take it seriously etc...  I am getting more and more nervous.  The others have either had someone sat in the chair that they spoke too or had a wonder around the cave.

It gets to me.... I take a deep breath and say mine was nothing like anyone else's here, with a rather concerned look on my face.  Peter says that's ok just share what happened.  So, I did.

At this point I am looking at Kevin and his mouth is practically gaping open and others in the room seem to have moved to the edges of their seats, I am feeling even  more nervous now that I have done something completely wrong but alas quite the contrary.  One of the ladies says it sounds as though you have had a Spiritual Journey.  Kevin goes on to explain that the Eagle represents that I am a messenger the Stag going from Brown to white means I can work here or on the spirit side, the girl experience meant that I could also be a rescuer... basically in a nut shell I could be anything.  By this time I am having that internal nervous shake.  Do you get that?  Where your whole body goes tense and you start to shake all over, not majorly but just enough. I am not really sure exactly what any of this means but I can see that Kevin is excited and in awe so I am presuming from this that what happened to me was a very good thing and judging by the others reactions quite rare.  So I thank my spirits and guides and say I appreciate all the wisdom and knowledge they are sharing with me.

Mediumship.... Oh yes I can!

It is then time for anyone who wishes to do some Mediumship to well, do it!  Others one at a time stand behind their chair and relay what they are getting.  I get told from Kevin it is my turn... "oh no, I am fine thank you, I have no idea what to do or how to do it"  He says oh, no, you need to do this - I will help you.  I am very skeptical, I know nothing about mediumship other than listening to other mediums but I can't do it, I don't know how to do it!

However, I get up and stand behind my chair as all the others had done before me.  Kevin puts his hand on my bank and says who is with you a man or a women, don't think just say.  To my complete and utter amazement I say Women, great he says, now describe her... I cannot see her face but I can see her hair, a well kept lady, she had serious issues with her stomach area, this I can feel, I feel the pain the uncomfortableness and yet I was going to feel so much more!

Kevin says now who are you with (meaning who is this person connected to in our Circle), and once again to my amazement I say who and I am right.  I describe some specifics including a box which indeed is at this persons Mum's house, I describe more about the lady who has passed and relay that I am getting a pain and tightness in my jaw it's almost as if I am trying to hold my tongue and then BAM, it was like getting verbal diarrhoea, she would often hold things in trying to make sure she kept everyone happy but in the end that was making her ill, she is here today to say that you have been doing the same thing and that you must stand up and speak up for yourself.  The lady confirmed everything I was saying.  But it was still the box that got me - I saw it in my head and described it and she confirmed it... You just cannot make that up!  Not that I was making things up but it was still a bit like is this really happening or am I imagining all of it?

It's not how you think it will be...

Because it is just not how you think it will be, not that I have ever really thought exactly how a Medium gets their messages but if I did it is not how it came through for me!

When I have a conversation with anyone they are in solid form and I can see and hear everything clearly, speaking to someone from the Spirit World just is not the same... Now I cannot say this for everyone as I have no idea but for me firstly the images were not always clear, it is as if they have a grey smokey cloud around them, secondly it was not a conversation as in words it was more things were just put into my head that I needed to reiterate.  When I was shown things like the Box again the surround was a grey type of smokey cloud, not a light bright grey, but more of a dark grey, so I almost wanted to squint my eyes to see better.  At this point I have no idea if that is the same for everyone or because it was my first ever moment of Mediumship and I need to polish my skills.

What it has shown me though is I am no longer skeptical....

Read about the continuation of this awakening in the next post...

Are you on a spiritual Journey of Awakening?  Have you an experience you would like to share?  Then please do get in touch, I would love to hear from you.

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Friday, 26 June 2015

Time of Awakening.... My Spiritual eye opener

Before I can begin on the awakening I need to tell you a little about where I have been.  How I got here and I guess why my spiritual journey opened so rapidly and abundantly....

For the last few years I have been getting lost and further lost... Have you had that?  Your relationships fall apart, your work life falls apart, everything you do just seems to... well fall apart? This had been happening to me.  Not overnight and not enough at first for me to really notice.

Not only was I lost but things in life were just no longer making sense, I was directionless, broken, empty and mistrusting of people and probably the world in general.  Now when I say this it is a generalisation because of course there were still days when the sun shone from within, where I would smile be happy and be grateful for amazing people and opportunities.  But eventually they would all feel empty and this is such an important part to tell, they would FEEL empty.  Now that I have hindsight and a small army of spiritual teachers and guides by my side I can see that I was just moving further and further away from my purpose. From what I was really meant to be doing.

Anyway, in January of 2015 everything was really coming to the point of collision, I was feeling low, I was feeling as though I no longer knew who I was, what I believed in, where I was going and if I could and was doing anything right as a Mum, a Fiancee, a Person, a Business Person, a Team Leader, etc...  Over the next few months I would reach breaking point where my mental and physical health would feel the brunt of it all and I began to close and shut down.

My first change was to get help, I called my health visitor and she was amazing, put me in touch with some great resources to help me get back on the track.  This, I now know was not a coincidence!

A few other people entered my life to help me reach balance but the part where I started to realise I was actually getting help from the other side was when my eldest daughter and I took advantage of a free Cream Tea in Brixham that we won in a raffle many months ago.

I start to notice...

Kiesha and I arrive in Brixham with Alina (my youngest) in tow.  It is rare for Kiesha and I to spend together as my toddlers demand attention at practically every waking moment so I was really looking forward to it.  We park the car and I enter the postcode into the maps app on my phone (I know so technically savvy!).  We walk in what actually is the completely the wrong direction (again this is no coincidence) but as we do I see a sign outside a shop called Featherz & Wingz about readings.  I ask Kiesha if she would like to find out about having a reading. Enthusiastically she says yes as she is intrigued.  They did not have any appointments available but we booked one for each of us the following week.  We came back out of the shop and all of a sudden I know where we need to go in order to get to Millie & Me (freaky right?).

Kiesha and Alina at Millie & Me Brixham

The Reading...

Kiesha and I returned to Featherz & Wings the following week and I had my reading while Kiesha looked after Alina.  I am ashamed to say I really cannot remember the ladies name.  I was nervous, it had been a long time since I had had a reading like this and to be fair I was much more skeptical now than I had ever been.  

She was lovely though, conversational and put me at ease.  I chose some Tarot cards... this was my first hmmmm moment.  

When I was much younger I used to do my own personal tarot readings and a few for friends but I was never really sure if I was doing it right!  I picked up these cards and instantly felt a connection... 

I know at this point I could lose many of you but it is true and very hard to describe.  Anyway, to cut the story short I was told a few pinnacle things:- Firstly I was actually very spiritual and the spirits had been waiting to work with me.  Secondly, I needed to join a Circle and also a healing circle and she mentioned that I could attend both in Brixham... obviously there was much more and evidence given etc... but these points just resonated.  I know, well rather I knew I was spiritual, when I was younger I knew things, could see things that others couldn't but like so many others one very scary experience meant the "seeing" stopped and as I grew older, I questioned more, believed less, and well, I lost all connection.... or so I thought!

We've been waiting...

The reading was on the Tuesday and late on Saturday I decided that I would attend a mediumship demonstration at our local Spiritualist Church.. In my head I said "right, if any of this is true and my reading was correct then let someone come through from the other side for me tonight".  How demanding?!  I have to confess that about half an hour later I was feeling really guilty about making such a demand and in my head I am saying "Traci, you know the spirit world does not just work like that, you can't just demand things and expect your need to be greater than others", However, I did not retract what I had asked for.

I arrive, settle down and listen to the many messages given.  Then the medium points to the two ladies behind me and says ladies I think I am with you and relays the details of how the person he is communicating with passed... Well, it was not too long before I began to feel a tingle, you know that tingle that happens when you know actually the person is connected with you? And sure enough the ladies did not recognise the information, I raised my hand and said I think you are with me.  Well, there was no way I could doubt... the spirit world did not just bring through one person, Oh no!  It was like a conveyer belt!  It was one after another, after another, after another.  It was beginning to get embarrassing but when in my head I said Ok, I get it, I believe you... it stopped!

After leaving the Spiritualist Church I felt a whole new form of peace, of fullness, almost like I was complete... This was so profound especially from the contrasting emotions of the last few months, even years.... For the first time in a very long time I was beginning to feel like me again... Like I had a purpose...

Read about the continuation of this awakening in the next post...

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